Did i do anything wrong??
sometimes we are faced with that dilemma of having to do something harsh for the benefit of the Greater good.
be it, breaking someone's heart OR trying to break a habit that your smoking father has been having for a long time,
in terms of intentions, we have good intentions. its just how it is.
Families are a very special group of people. some people are born with horrible group of ppl some are blessed with the most caring people ever. but despite it all, they never fail to bring out the WORST but most importantly the best of you. i love them for that..
sometimes they don't even know that they affect you so much..
Right now the deafening sound of silence is getting to me.. it kills.. but there is always PS 2 to the rescue & not forgetting Dante from Devil May Cry ~Greatest Hits.. ok ok, a bit off track..
a fren once asked, "will i still want the things that i want after i get it?"
well, there is always that split second of losing yourself in the moment cos of the long time taken to get to where you are, but ask you this question,
"would you in the first place want it, if it could be gotten so easily?"
taiyo signing offf~
2:17 AM
Right out of a scrapbook. This entry is going to be such an EMO shitt..
Warning given~
I am lacking human interaction lately.
I live I a world lie a character in a cartoon motion. I find solitude and peace quite gratifying. We are born to be what we are. But still we appear differently to everyone we meet.
At home, I find myself finding myself (no typo error here) at the wee hours of the morning. When everyone is asleep, when the air is cool and I am looking at the ceiling I painted. It looks pretty incomplete, but believe me, it’s flawless. Even on a starless night or when I would search for the moon to shine some form of hope, I can still look up and see the glowing light of my [stick-on glow-in-the-dark] constellations. {Bought at Popular for $6.95}
Sometimes its hard to stay in your room when outside, it’s a ruckus where people are screaming claiming to know what’s best for you. Smoking, indefinitely. In a world when you have to be mean and look strong so that other people do not step over you, we try to find a sanctuary where you are the only one that matters, where you will find that sense of safety and assurance. But when your sanctuary is my room which has no locks and people can barge in anytime they want, you kinda lose hope sometimes and try to find the next best thing~
Another place, be it a canal where cool breeze blows or a playground where you free carefree again, away from a world that is cut throat full of people who would try to spoil your day just to make them feel better..
For what’s its worth, I’ve missed you. But there are people, others call them acquaints, brothers, buddies, homies, dudes, tribemates whatever man. I call them friends, to always cheer me up. A friend once told me “we always want to be somebody’s favourite right?”
Well we do actually. Some find it easier than others, but seriously I don’t give a damn…. Nah.. maybe just a little bit.. a lot?? Haha.. I seem to be cheering up alittle here~
Hmm, we sometimes depend on people we never thought we would. They surprise us sometimes, even for an irritating son of a gun like me.. they’d be willing to hear the shit stuff that happens to me. Not all the time though, but sometimes friends can be so annoying you wanna strangle them to the floor. And sometimes they’d make you laugh so hard you would get stitches laughing so hard..that’s something rite~
Well 7 out of 10 lesbian relationships are nonsensical…. Hmm ok~~~ a little queasy smile here..
Well that’s what Rachel from Ninjado told me..
But there would always be people who think they are better that everyone else to make us feel small. Well generally I don’t give a damn. It’s a journey where we learn, feeling comfortable in our own skin and accepting others for who they are.
No matter how perfect we humans become, we will always find flaws and have insecurities. Some maybe view it as foolish but that’s how it is. We always try to achieve to be better that what we can. For those over there who still thinks that the world is a challenge I am going to conquer, I give you my support. Doesn’t mean I am a more laid back person, you should slack off. I am just contented with life, you aren’t. Your dream is to make money and be rich and successful. You are still young, use that charm and youth to get that satisfaction you always yearn of having.
I just feel happier not stressing myself out~
And for those who are lazy and dun wanna read my lengthy blog entries, here are some photos. Things that i’ve been doing the past month~
Chishiho Sensei's Bdae..
Celebrating Wei Jie & Louie's Bdae..
Overlooking the fture to see how i would look like~
Having a Brownie Spectacular Day
Another Bdae Celebrated.......
Fixing my keyboard which made me headache
10:07 PM
"You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes." - Morpheus, Matrix 1999 Which pill would you take? Explain Why?
Let us take it that I know nuts about Matrix.
I would take the red pill.
The ticket to eternity in dreamland.
I would be able to do anything, everything in the land where nothing is impossible.
However, that would not be real right? Yet, who could ever define what is real and what is not?
Some mentioned that upon getting lost in the unknown, then would one truly reach the place of “truth”.
The material world where many had termed as reality is in fact the true Dream world. Humans are obsessed with the materialistic illusion present all around, and that blinds them from truly Sensing. This is what I believe in.
Auras, Telepathy, Telekinetic – some of the many abilities that humans had termed to be special psychic powers; they are said to be simply potential hidden within all of us. Why not take the chance and leapt into the unknown?
Perhaps the only thing that would hold me back is the knowledge that I am leaving the important people of my life back here.
9:42 PM